Walking towards the yellow and tangerine…
When doing self-relationship work there are those moments you hit when everything is going well; when everything you hoped for yourself is in the palm of your hand.
I was having several of these moments when I joined my new yoga community - as a student. If you know me, you know I am a yoga instructor and have been for several years. I took a hiatus from teaching and found myself at a new yoga studio.
I say found, but it was a couple years of waiting and walking the path until I was permitted to join another studio. Permission always comes through me through my Teams and the Divine Beings that support me. I want to press on the gas, and they want me to take a minute. I don’t always know the reasons, but I always follow.
After about six weeks of being with a strengthening, encouraging, supportive and entertaining community I found strength in my body that felt brand new and, honestly, felt magical. This strength was new.
I laid in my savasana after another glorious rigorous class and I cried my gratitude tears for the umpteenth time and a vision came to me and I knew I would paint it in my style.
I saw the beautiful blazing sky in an array of colors, mostly tangerine and yellow and I saw the mountainous path before it. I was in the magic. I was the bright and vibrant sky. I felt like the sky. I was able to reap all the hard work I did for myself prior to joining this community. I walked the journey. The journey was often lovely and sometimes arduous and lonesome. Like this past 2025-26 winter here on the east coast of the US, it felt the most stagnant and cumbersome just prior to joining the studio. In this moment of savasana, I felt so proud of myself for choosing to do the hard work to get to the bliss and ease. As everyone knows, it can be really hard to be a human in this world.
Is it the studio that is bringing me all the joy? Yes and no. Yes, because I have experienced strength and poses my body has never felt before. I have found lovely, strong and encouraging people to practice next to - as a STUDENT - not a teacher. And No, because it is the yoga that always brings me physical, mental, emotional and spiritual wellness. No, because it is the self-love I have given myself for years (decades!) that allows me to experience this and it is moving into other areas of my life.
As with all journeys, I am back on the path. I am elevated and walking towards another level of learning and joy and magic. I’ll keep listening and following.
This painting has been placed at my altar to be infused with all the magic and strength of walking a path of unconditional self-love.
Settle your eyes on it and feel, remember and realize all of your own paths you have been on and the moments of magic you experienced; the yellow and tangerine brightness of joy and bliss. The bliss always settles into a calm joy and you keep walking because a new path is always ready and waiting for you. And so is the magic.
If you find your current journey is arduous, lonely or stagnant, remember this vision and know that nothing is permanent. Everything changes. If you are caring for yourself, you will find the yellow and tangerine. And after this blissful moment the next path will unfold in front of you. And so it is.
Thank you for experiencing my art and joining along.
Ellen x
